Sometimes the change it good…The school season has ended about a month ago, and I found my self heavier a bit, and getting lazy most of the time. So I said hey! What about practising a bit, and start learning how to cook! It’s pretty cool to go to practise at 6:00 am every morning, though I feel so tired and I just want to stop every time I start running, but then I tell myself Hey Young lady You got some great calories to lose in here so move that big body and shake the ground!
And fortunately it’s working I lost some weight in a week, it didn’t appear in the beginning but now It gave me some results and I feel happy with it. I start liking my body. And It kinda add a new effect to myself confidence. It has been two months and a few weeks since my mother left to TX, I miss her a lot she was the one who takes care of everything, and keeps everything under control. I start leaning on myself a lot these days, I’m learning how to live without a mother and yeah I definitely succeeded! I have some sisters she left two with me actually, I never go to the kitchen to help them! But this time I tried to change my habits a bit and become more useful at home, like cleaning some rooms, or setting up the couch, making dinner once… I just want to prove to my mother that I can live by my own, and be responsible, and I’m lea rning I’m learning throughout all all of this! So here’s a shot of my dinner last night, so It wasn’t a really hard thing to do but just a small thing for the beginning. and now I must go to run, So I’m so happy on doing what I’m doing. Actually in a few years I could never practise sports, whether in public, or in privet, It used to terrify me a lot, but not any more! I’m too old to be scared of doing a 30 minutes exercises to lose some weight!
So lesson learned: “Keep your old fears away, and today, do what you could never do before”
I’m not that kind of girl that give up so easily, I hate to lose, when I started this new journey I created something strong, something I can’t touch it with my nails but only with my heart and brain, it was the WILL, Yeah I will finish this journey and take all the risks and let go of the past, I will be more open up to other people, in the end not all people bite :p!
It’s so amazing to focus on the people around me those who care and love me, those who would sacrifice and did sacrifice a lot for me.
My mother has been away for about two mounts, I promised her that I will be responsible and be a good girl, I miss her so much, I wish I can be just right where she is to give her lots of hugs she needs that, and so do I !
But this it, life is experiencing me, giving me chances and taking others. Thanks to god that I don’t lose my self grip when I’m mad! >_< ….I take it as a gift i’m so grateful to god.
I want to prove to my mom, my brother, my sisters, and the best friends someone can ever has, that I can do more than they can ever imagine. if I ever felt sad life would push me forward, and I just love how it goes!!!
I’m not giving up, not now, nor tomorrow nor after that.
Lesson learned :“God gave me a gift, which is life, I gotta take it, save it, and be mature on handling it”