Opportunity wait for me….

Dear readers, 

It has been a few months since I had posted anything here.

I have been recently wandering about what I want to do with my summer, and during the upcoming school year; should I look for another job with a higher salary? should I travel to see a friend, or should I stay home this summer do nothing and just study for my prep tests? But I want an opportunity, I want some exchange program, abroad far away from where I live, I want to explore more places, meet new people… I applied last semester to a few stuffs and didn’t get accepted to them, should I give up on doing that? 

But hey, wait… I think I have been very lucky to get many opportunities last year, starting from human rights to training on leadership and entrepreneurship to facilitating sessions with important organizations internationally… I think I had many opportunities, that I might have never thought I will have.. but still I want to explore the horizon 

However, it has made me a little anxious, and worried, until I figured out something, it’s us who create these opportunities, as Ann Landers once said : ” Opportunities are disguised as hard work that’s why so many people don’t recognize them”

And she was right, because opportunities are all over around us, they can be a school assignment, a final exam, or the smallest responsibility that is given for you to take… I think that when we don’t figure out what is the true meaning of something as in ” opportunity” we will be less able to enjoy our lives, or people around us.

We should be more grateful for the little things we have, appreciate the fact that we have them, they are an opportunity, if you have a loving husband it’s an opportunity, if you have  a loving parent that’s another one, if you find yourself in a school with zero issue that’s an opportunity, if you have food on your table that’s another one too. so by the end of the day it’s up to you and what you want to do with this opportunity, our time is limited, and we won’t have those forever, so decide well, love more, and focus on what you have, but that doesn’t mean to stop looking for what’s far from you, do it, fearlessly and with courage, but don’t neglect what is present there for you too…

 

Fearlessly with love

 

Ikram

A Drained Empath

Most of the people do not believe in the fact that we all have energies within ourselves. and actually these energies can be boosted or drained. especially if you are an EMPATH. 

It happened to be that I’m a grateful living empath, this year so many great opportunities came into my life and I took the benefit of each one of them until now, but in some of those opportunities I have missed a lot, and I didn’t take all I needed to take from them, too simply because I was drained.

At some points during this year, like many other times before, I was surrounded by a few energy suckers, or I like to call them energy vampires, somehow by bringing all their problems at once, acting dramatic and being negative all the time makes you feel like their problems are also yours, so you began feeling the same as they do, and suddenly you’re living in negative vibes that will suck all your energy, you find yourself helping them and making them a priority but by the end of the day, all you will feel is exhaustion because they will keep draining you a day after another.

This is what being an affectionate empath is, and it’s unhealthy for a living being…. So I decided to act about it, because the situation was no longer working for me, since I am surrounded by so many people, all the time.

I just had to be a little selfish here, I had to push those who drain me away from me, avoid them or even more cut the contact gently with them. I had to keep my energy for myself, I need it to survive.

It is such a bless to feel people so deeply sometimes and to be able to help them to heal or relieve a lasting pain, but some people are really toxic, and they’re just around us for their own benefit.

We must tolerate our differences all the time, accept the people around us, because I believe that we meet these people for a reason either it’s a blessing or a lesson.

Be fearless and choose your surroundings carefully, and remember, not everyone is worth your time and energy, so save it for your own sake.

Those bullies of mine….And my story in dealing with’em

As most of the kids my parents sent me to a public school, it was pretty exciting for me at the beginning to learn new stuffs about different subjects and meet new people…  yeah new people…  

I remember my years at the middle school where I was the most fat and the tallest girl of my class! yeah I was that BIG …

One of the greatest things that made me a target for those kids was being that BIG for them and everyone was like: LOSE WEIGHT FAT COW!! I have to admit that in the past it hurt me a lot to hear something similar from those I spent eight hours per a day with, and the most hurtful thing was when we were having a team work or a sport activity most of them avoided me…. 

I kept trying to interact with them at first but I failed and I’m not ashamed to say that! so all I did was ignoring them as much as I could, and isolate myself from them till I reached a point where I couldn’t speak to anyone of them!

An other situation where I got bullied was a few years ago, I’ve been attacked by three girls who wanted to take my seat place at the class, I didn’t want to leave my seat for them! who would do that? well and another confusing question how can the three ones of them sit at the same place?? !!!! one of them tried to flip the chair I was sitting at and the other started to curse me and insult me with some vulgar words I never heard someone saying in my whole life!!! I wanted to speak to the teacher but they ran to her before me and told her other stuffs! even I, I was so surprised!! I can’t forget that day ever!! I kept crying, just like kids do, and I went back home and reported everything to my elder brother! the next day we went to the school’s principal and reported everything to him, he was like OK I will deal with IT !! just relax! AND I SWEAR THAT HE NEVER DID !!! 🙂 I didn’t feel like I wanted to go back to school because I felt like I was the joke of the class! but eventually, I had to go back to school!! So I decided to avoid them, I took a chair, a table and put it on the back of the class, and I asked a girl I knew she was good to join me at my table …. I could have revenged and acted the same way as they acted, and attack people as the same way they attacked me, but I choose to do it the hard way! I was teasing them!! 🙂 how? too simply I was the first of my class for each trimester and the one that gets the best grades in EVERY subject! they went crazy for that! I have to admit that ignoring them was a great thing I did for a while, but later in life I figured out that No man is an island! or that’s why my English teacher kept trying to make me understand it! at some point they were right!! I had to lose weight! so I went through a diet! 🙂 So yeah I went from that pic on the left to the one in the right!!!

Eventually, I figured out that moving on is a bless! So I had to forgive them deep down in myself, without letting them know I did, I didn’t forgave them because they apologized (they never did actually), or because someone told me to! I forgave them because I needed that so I can move on with my life, and see things differently! but the most thing that made me upset and mad! was the fact that they were bullying others…..! and NO ONE was acting about it! even the teachers! I may haven’t reacted wildly when they bullied me, but when they did to that nice redhead girl who was sitting next to me I got upset! It was the first time I ever had to face them! I went to those girls and told them to stop the crap they were doing! because it’s no longer valid! they actually look so stupid, it didn’t make them look any special or different! it was just making them looking worse a day after another!!! when I mentioned how stupid they look I think it was a kind of a punch on the face to them to wake up!! and realize what they were doing!

After that day, I felt like I grew up some fearless attitude inside of me! I wasn’t scared nor worried to tell anyone the truth in their face, and give my opinion fearlessly !

I have to admit that without those bullies I wouldn’t be where I am now! I grew up slowly, a step by step to become fearless! and more confident than I was in the past! Thanks to them I was getting the best grades! thanks to them I developed myself optimism!

My message here is: be who you are, never hurt or bully others, it can harm a lot of people lives, don’t take it as a joke, because this joke can grow up to be something serious and lead others to harm themselves in any possible way just to get rid of that pain they think is real! be friendly, be nice, be what you want to be without crossing your limits! and the world will be just FINE …. 

And for those whom are getting bullied, report it, if it’s not working, ignore them, if it’s not working then face them, make them stop that thing they’re doing! don’t behave inappropriately ! forgive them, and move on with your life ! do it for yourself, not for them! I know it’s hard, I’ve been there, and got out safely, as I did, I’m sure you’re strong enough to do as well! I believe in you! focus on positive things, life is beautiful, I know they make it look like it’s the worst place to be at, but trust me, it’s not! we’ve got so much to give! so much to live for, you can’t imagine the opportunities that are waiting for you to take them! never lose hope! go after your dreams and achieve them! don’t tie your life to people nor to objects because they will fade, tie it to a sacred goal and achieve it! that will be the time when you will reach happiness! 

Much love, Ikram ❤

Exams are knocking the door …..

          I’m so grateful for being able to make it to the law school, I can’t say that it’s a dream coming true but I think it’s the right   thing I should do… the exams are in two weeks from now so yeah…. tons of things to study !! 

I feel very comfortable in the law school, I enjoy what we are studying, simply all I can say is that I’m loving it! Honestly it wasn’t a dream of mine but I think it’s what I can do best! I am good at defending others, protecting rights and speaking for’em..

I loved science, and I still do, I’ve been in a scientific field in high school, I loved physics as well and English! the class that I didn’t like much was the maths class, well i’m not just gonna sit and complain about how our teachers were or the length of the program and the skipped lessons but let’s just put the blame on me for not working so hard and trying to do more…anyways I was good at science it opened my mind a lot… I still need scientific researches in my current studies of law, how magnificent to realize that how everything is so related, how every field is linked somehow to another one….

Law is just who I am, with all those complexities aaah ❤ …. sometimes when you think that you are at the wrong place you shouldn’t keep nagging about it, complaining, crying or even whining in my opinion that’s the most pathetic thing someone could ever do! the key to solve this dilemma is by working that half-dead brain to get solutions to lift yourself up from where you are to where you want to be…honestly, school is just not for everyone some people are made for school, some others are made for building houses, some other are made for making food….. I would never believe that there is someone in this world whom isn’t made FOR DOING anything! I would never underestimate those who does hard jobs or those who cook for their living no I would never do, it’s a decent job full of gratitude!! the point is we are all here to SERVE each other, if we can’t make an impact and make a difference on someone else’s life then what’s the point? what are we living for? If we don’t wake up everyday to draw a smile on someone’s face by giving well let’s not hope that life will give us a lot !!

If you want to change your current position and you believe that you’re at the wrong place I promise you it is simple as hard as it seems the secret is in taking small steps and walk on the road god choose for you, do what you have to do, study, practice, eat well, rest a bit and then go back to work! believe in yourself while no one can believe in you as much as you can, conquer those mind-based fears…

I won’t lie and tell you that I am a hard studying person, but I will just confirm that I go to my college everyday I attend all the courses, never absented (anyone only under a special case), I listen to what my teachers tell me, I got to the library, I bring some books to home with me and I read them, I’m not perfect I’m not flawless, but I do what I can, and I try to do what I think I can’t each time and find out that I can, how motivating is that!!

Socially, I just have a few weird friends like me, lol, whom are obsessed about books and some stereotyped music bands, and other things kids call “old-fashion” yeah who cares! :p …. I’m not all the time with them but I find time to be with them… For the rest, I can communicate with anyone I have no problem with doing that, I tolerate their differences, and I like sharing thoughts and ideas with others, I always learn from’em especially if they’re old …

Studying can be very manipulating, I don’t like doing it a lot, but i’m passionate about learning new things, and I think when we are passionate about finding the truths and discussing them we’ll remember them very quickly, wish me luck in my first exams at college, I can’t tell that i’m not stressed a bit but let’s punch the monster :p , I’ll show’em who rocks that school 😉 …

Lesson learnt : ” Follow the path that you believe you’re good at, never let someone forces you to do something you’re not passionate about, be optimist and realistic, and do what it takes to get yourself to a higher level”

Goodnight, much of love ❤

Meditation was the Key !!!

   If someone asked me for a trick to reduce stress, anxiety, fear, and any psychic issue some one may ever feel I would advise them simple to “MEDITATE” ….

For me meditation is going to some quiet place, relax, forget about the whole universe for a little while, put some classical music on, and clear your mind, just let the positive thoughts flow to your mind, let yourself BE, let all your body relax, your hands, your muscles, your head, breathe in slowly, inhale, now exhale……

it’s lots of positive vibes flowing into your mind and your body, you will feel that you’re energized with positivism and strength… what a wonderful thing you can sens !!

It’s all about picking up the right place and the right time to meditate…it’s always great to do it but if you’re feeling very stressed or afraid of something, or having lots of worries, or having a bad day, I suggest for you to do it…. especially outside of your house, go to the nature, some small forest, in front of some long river or just a place where you can see the sunset, I have to admit that there isn’t any other thing in the whole world that amazes me more than the sunsets, the sunsets electrifies me in a spectacular way that opens my mind and make me wonder about how great our creator is…. What a magnificent lord ! 

As I always say, fear is just in our minds, it doesn’t exist, together with hands tied and open minds we might be able to feel more fearless in our blessed days ….. how great to wake up healthy everyday to see the world, how blessed we are, we just can’t thank god enough for everything he’s giving us….

I believe that meditation is a healthy nutrition for the spirit, everyone should put it on their diets.

Nature inspires me

I have to admit that sometimes I get that sense of exhaustion of going to college everyday crossing a long distance to attend my courses and some teachers may not come sometimes….
But then I search deep inside why am I doing this ?? Why am I here?? What does it all mean to me? The answer is always the same it’s what I’m living for, and I would like to keep it private because it’s not that personal but I have a special intimacy with that subject if I start talking about I won’t stop lol… Honestly I have to admit that te nature inspire me a lot like nothing else does, it’s so beautiful if I would do one single thing without stopping for my whole life it would be looking to what god has created looking to these spectacular sights, this magnificent nature, those green fields, that huge skies with all the changes of the seasons, the sea with those high waves, the rivers and its whistling sound, I love to wake up everyday to see a beautiful piece of nature that feeds my soul and make me breathe well, all the exhaustion, the loneliness and the stress fade away when I meditate, when I look to what god has created. I’m so grateful for being able to see I can’t take god enough for that. Such a bless.
Lesson learned: ” be fearless, find your inspiration”.

Self-talking

Something I figured out with time